Suiss

i'ts been a week since our discussion, I feel I miss you everyday, I feel like this is my grieving in a funeral where there is no guests. I'm sorry about the fight and then I try to remember what happend, do you really understand you get upset because I tell you my idea, which in any case is not your concern because whatever I do with my money is my busines?
even like that you choose to not say a word, for me was hard to decide, but after seeing myself in my couch crying for someone I don't even know personally, that show me a clear vision of how looks my future next to you.
probably now you are saying I'm always blame you, but this is not my fault either, I just was able to see this before quit all my life for you, I was ready to do it, I was brave enough to make that huge step and try to share my life with you. for you was so easy to hurt me and stop talking to me, like I didn't mean anythig in your life, I want to belive is not like that but, I want to belive your ego is hurt and you preffer not even mentioned or talking about this because I'm just other girl in your life, other faillure in your list. if I was meaning something to you, you will care about talking but no, you don't care and I though Im going to be sad after writing this but I'm not, I'm pretty upset because you make me belive you was "the guy I need in my life" the "real men" but no, you're just other stupid guy who is nos capable to speak about emotions and don't even cry, you fight with everybody, why I'm going ot be the difference?
really? I dont even know why Im sad or why I miss you, time ago we stop doing couple's things also and I don't feel you finde me attarctive in any way anymore. not even intellectually since your questioned my desitions